He rooted through the bills on the bar, pushed a five forward, folded the rest. “You’re right. I think I need to get out of here.”

When he got off the stool, he lost his balance for a moment, put one hand against the bar. “Leg’s asleep.”

She looked at him, feeling that familiar sensation. Years since she’d known it firsthand, but here it was again, stronger than ever. Disappointment, almost resignation. You always let me down, Billy Boy. Always. And you don’t even know it.

“Hold up,” she said. “You get DWI’ed out there, how’s that look for the review?”

“I’m okay.”

“You’re not. Even if you were, why take the chance?”

He looked at her, his eyes watery, the skin around them taut and red.

“You know I’m right,” she said.

He raised his hands to shoulder height. Surrender.

“I’ll drive you home,” she said. “You can get your truck tomorrow.”

She slid off the stool. Althea nodded to them.

“I’ve got to take a leak first,” he said and went off to the men’s room near the pool table, his walk unsteady. The two players looked at him for a moment, then went back to their game.

She waited by the front door. When he came back there was a wet spot on the front of his jeans. Like a little kid. When they first met, his childishness had appealed to her in some ways. Then it had begun to feel like just another burden.

She opened the door for him. Over her shoulder, she saw Angie in the booth, watching them as they went out.

It had rained briefly, and puddles in the dirt lot reflected the neon from the window signs. She’d parked under a southern pine near the edge of the lot. She got the keypad out, beeped the doors open.

“You need anything from your truck?” His black Ford F-150 pickup was parked nose first against the fence a few spots away.

He shook his head, followed her to the Blazer. She opened the driver’s side door, waited until he got up in the passenger side without falling before she climbed up herself.

She started the engine. It coughed, hesitated.

“Needs a tune-up,” he said.

“Doesn’t like the wet weather.”

“Points and plugs.”

“Next paycheck, maybe.”

She turned out of the parking lot, splashing through puddles.

“They oughta pave this,” he said. “Make it not look so Florida white trash. Proud as I am of my own Florida white trashness.”

She smiled at that, turned east on the county road, woods on both sides of them. He powered down his window, and she turned the air-conditioning off, slid her own window down a little.

They drove in silence for the first five minutes, headlights cutting a path through the night.

“You ever hear from Roy?” he said.

“You’re the second person today to ask me that.”

“So I guess the answer’s no?”

“He’s not coming back. Even if he was, I can’t live my life worrying about it, wondering about it. Three years is a long time. If he was going to, he would have.”

“Never could understand that.”

“What part of it?”

“Leaving a woman like you.”

“You mean a woman with a son?”

“That, too.”

“I wonder about that myself,” she said.

“Birthdays? Anything?”

She shook her head.

“You could find him if you want to. These days it isn’t hard.”

“Who says I want to? And what’s with all the ancient history tonight?”

“Sorry,” he said and sat back.

He was quiet for a while, and then he said, “You know what I can’t get out of my mind?”

“What?”

“That car seat.”

“Don’t let it bother you so much,” she said. “A lot of times for a drug run, gun run, they’ll put a car seat in the back. Makes them look less suspicious if they get stopped.”

He picked up a plastic brontosaurus from the floor, looked at it, turned it over in his hands, put it back down.

“I don’t know,” he said. “I think that one was for real.”

She saw the lights of his house up ahead, the red lens that marked the mailbox.

“With what you’re making now,” she said, “you could have moved closer to town a long time ago.”

“Why would I do that? I like it out here. Reminds me of what I come from.”

She made a right into the long dirt driveway, slowed to ease over the ruts and bumps. The house loomed up on the right. It was bordered by woods on two sides, on the other a long-dead cornfield. There was a carport in the sideyard, empty now, a dirt front yard, concrete steps leading up to the front door.

She pulled up, cut the headlights, left the engine running. It was the first time she’d been out here in two years. Light shone through the kitchen curtains. She remembered standing at that window, doing dishes he’d let pile up for days. She’d look out at the desiccated cornstalks, the woods beyond, grateful she didn’t live here.

“Want to come in?” he said. “It’s been a while.”

“I don’t think so.”

He made no move to get out. She could hear crickets, the muffled hoot of an owl off in the trees.

“It’s late,” she said. “You should go inside.”

“I know.” He cocked his head slightly, a look that used to make her warm to him no matter what, and he knew it. He leaned close, and she didn’t move away. Their lips met. He kissed her hard, and she let him at first, tasting the schnapps, let his tongue slide in, and then it all felt wrong, bad wrong, and she put a hand on his chest, pushed him away. He sagged back against the passenger side door.

“Sorry,” he said.

“You don’t need to apologize. But you need to go.”

He opened the door. The courtesy light went on, and she could see the disappointment in his face and something else, despair even, or close to it.

He got out, turned to her.

“It’s good to see you,” he said. “I miss you sometimes.”

“I miss you, too. Sometimes.”

He smiled a little, and it made her feel better to see it. He shut the door, crossed around the front of the Blazer, tapped the hood twice as he started toward the house.

She watched him go up the steps, open the screen door, fit his key in the lock. He turned to wave to her, and she waved back. He shut the door behind him. Another light went on inside.

She sat that way for a few minutes, engine running, watching the house. Wondering if he would come back out, and what she would do if he did.

After a while, she backed up, swung around, turned the headlights on, and drove home.

The office had hard plastic chairs, joined together in groups of four. Morgan had been sitting for almost a half hour, sharing the room with a heavy woman, her crying baby, and an old white man with toothpick-thin arms and legs. There was a TV mounted high on the opposite wall, a soap opera playing without sound.

The receptionist had shut the window above her desk. Morgan could see her on the phone behind the pebbled glass. On his lap was a two-month-old Newsweek. He flipped through the pages, reading an item here and there, looking at the ads.

The door beside the desk buzzed, opened, and a short black woman in a white coat came out.

“Mr. Morgan?”

He took off his reading glasses, folded them and put them in a shirt pocket, and got up, his knees aching. He dropped the magazine on his seat. She held the door open, and he followed her down a hall to a treatment room.

“You can hang your coat there,” she said, and he took the leather off, hung it on a peg on the back of the door. She weighed him on a scale, took his blood pressure, pulse, and temperature, noted them on a clipboard chart. She told him the doctor would be with him shortly, closed the door, and left him alone.

He sat on the treatment table, paper crinkling under him, looked around. There was a cutaway chart on one wall showing the progression of heart disease, cholesterol buildup in the arteries. Another had the seven warning signs of Type 1 diabetes.