“I don’t think women are as interested in how men look as the other way around,” the priest said. “What do you think attracted her?”

Moon had never answered that question before, not even to himself. He said, “I think she was afraid. I think sort of subconsciously she figured I wouldn’t hurt her.”

“Have you?”

“No,” Moon said. “I haven’t and I won’t.”

“But the predators would?”

“They will.”

“You don’t think of yourself as one of the predators?”

Moon felt his face flushing. Why the devil should he defend himself to this man? But he wanted to.

“I should explain the arrangement better,” Moon said. “She has her bedroom, I have mine.”

“You said that,” the priest said, “but-”

“Let me finish,” Moon said. “I stay out of her room. She doesn’t always stay out of mine.”

“The sleeping together then is when she wants to?”

“Or when she sees I want to.”

Silence. The priest coughed. “Is anybody waiting?”

Moon checked. “Nobody.”

“How about other men? The predators.”

“She’s free as a bird,” Moon said. “She goes out with other men. Probably she’s out with one tonight.” Even as he said it, Moon found it hard to think of J.D., the publisher’s happy-go-lucky son, as a predator. Unless gerbils are predators.

“You said she wouldn’t marry you yet. Does she say she’ll marry you someday?”

“She doesn’t say it, but I think so,” Moon said. “Or one of them will take her away, and dump her, and she’ll end up like her mother.”

“Why do you think that?”

How could he explain it to this man whose only view of life was through a wooden grillwork into the darkness of other men’s souls?

“Because she doesn’t have any respect for herself. No confidence. A couple of these guys dump her and-” He let the sentence hang.

“Go on,” the priest said.

“That’s all,” Moon said. “I’m finished.”

“But you’ve left me with the question unanswered. What was the big sin you mentioned? And how did you ruin the woman’s life?”

“I killed a man,” Moon said.

Into the silence that this produced he added, “He was-” But he left the sentence unfinished. What more was there to say?

“The Fifth Commandment,” the priest said.

“The fifth. Thou Shalt Not Kill is not even number two. But serious, of course. How serious depends on the motivation. Was it ambition, lust, revenge, envy, a moment of fury, hatred?-”

“He was my best friend,” Moon said. “I guess, outside my family, he was the only person I could ever say I loved. I could trust him. Absolutely trust him.”

“So what was the motivation?”

“I was drunk,” Moon said.

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TO REACH THE DINING ROOM of the Hotel Maynila one took an escalator from the lobby, descended past a waterfall flowing over a granite pseudo-cliff, and surrendered oneself to an ornately uniformed fellow to be taken to a seat. Moon was assigned to a table adjoining the swinging doors from the kitchen. He explained he needed a quieter place for a business conversation. He suggested one of a row of empty tables by the glass wall with a view out into the garden. The uniformed fellow looked skeptical but bowed and made the new assignment.

Moon sat, elbows on the tablecloth, looking into a steady tropical rain and into a jungle of tropical flowers, none of which he could identify. The incident with the maître d’ had confirmed a previous Moon conclusion. He must either get this jacket and these slacks to the cleaner and his socks, shirts, and underwear to a laundry, or say to hell with it, face reality, and fly home where it didn’t matter how he looked. The opulence that surrounded him here reinforced another decision. He had to check out of this five-star hotel, whether or not he went home. He couldn’t afford it. If he was going to play out this Don Quixote role to the end, he’d find Ricky’s apartment and move into it until someone told him where to locate the baby. Or until he got sensible and gave up, a conclusion to this affair that had come to seem tremendously appealing.

Victoria Mathias had taught her sons that being late for an appointment was inexcusably rude, an arrogant declaration that you were more important than the one you were meeting. Moon, therefore, tended to be early and thus had become skilled at waiting. He studied the menu, but saw nothing to modify his decision to order bacon and scrambled eggs. Then he unfolded the Philippine Daily Journal he’d picked up in the lobby.

The banner story concerned construction of the Imelda Marcos Children’s Hospital. A headline down the page declared that Pol Pot’s new government in Phnom Penh was establishing a “national program of reeducation” to restore Khmer values to Cambodia. Moon read every word of that. It involved Khmer Rouge troops driving hordes of civilians out of cities and towns into work camps being set up in the countryside. It sounded like a hodgepodge of rumors, mostly incredible. He turned to a follow-up story on President Ford’s request that Congress appropriate more money for weapons for South Vietnam. The writer saw no sign that Ford was twisting arms to get the funds, nor any indication that Congress would agree. From that Moon turned to refugees flee highlands. A photograph of ARVN troops crowding aboard a C-13o, knocking down civilians, accompanied the story. Moon imagined himself caught in such chaos, baby under his arm. Here he was, wasting time. And if Ricky’s child was still in Cambodia, how much time did he have? He put down the Journal and glanced at his watch. In fifty-eight seconds, Mrs. Osa van Winjgaarden would be late, as people usually were.

But when Moon looked up, a woman was walking toward his table.

She was tall, slim, dark, a narrow face, a straight, narrow nose, high cheekbones, and large black eyes, which, when he noticed her, were studying him anxiously. This was not the plump blue-eyed blond Dutch matron the name had led Moon to expect, but she was walking directly toward him. He pushed back his chair and rose.

“Mr. Mathias,” she said. “I hope you haven’t been waiting long?”

“Not at all,” Moon said. “In fact, you’re early. I’ve just been reading the paper and waiting for some coffee.” He shook the hand she offered, pulled back her chair, and signaled the waiter.

“I hope you found some good news,” she said. “We could use some good news.” She smiled at him, a rueful smile. “Certainly you could.”

Moon looked surprised.

“I mean your brother’s death. And now your mother being so ill. Mr. Castenada told me of your troubles. I hope she is getting better.”

“Oh,” Moon said. “Thank you. It’s her heart. They’re doing some tests. Maybe they’ve already done them. To tell whether to do bypass surgery. Last time I called I couldn’t reach anyone who seemed to know anything.”

“The time difference,” she said. “You can never reach anyone on the other side of the Pacific. But I want to express my sympathy. Ricky was a wonderful man. And his wife. Eleth was sweet.”

Eleth? Eleth Vinh? Wife? “I really didn’t know her,” Moon said. “We hadn’t met.” He signaled for the waiter again, waited while the coffee was poured, offered this dark woman the cream and sugar, and, when she declined, applied it to his own cup.

“You saw the paper this morning,” she said. “Pol Pot’s mad children are in Phnom Penh. How does that affect your plans?”

Plans? Moon stirred, sipped. “Actually, it doesn’t,” he said. “I haven’t any plans. Only to talk to you and find out what you would tell me. And then I will see if I can find some of Ricky’s friends and see what they know. And if the child is somewhere here in Manila, I will get her and take her home to her grandmother.”