A sensation of warmth slid through her, and she met his gaze. “Why?”
“Glutton for punishment, I guess,” he said with a crooked grin.
She rolled her eyes. “Okay, well, thanks, but I’m just offering Rowdy an apple tonight.” She walked to his stall and the gelding came over to gawk at her. He nodded and dipped his head as if to greet her.
“He’s flirting with you,” Jackson said from behind her.
“How do you know that? Are you a horse whisperer?”
“It’s a guy thing,” he said. “We just know. There’s a pretty woman around and one guy is going to try to hog her attention. That’s what Rowdy is trying to do.”
“He’s so gorgeous,” she said, admiring his silky coat.
“And he’s succeeding,” Jackson continued in a dry tone.
“He just smells my apple and wants it,” she said.
“I could say something about your apple-”
“But you won’t,” she said and put the apple on her flat hand and gingerly lifted it toward Rowdy. He scarfed it into his mouth in a flash. She felt a crazy little rush of triumph. She’d done it on her own, and she was sweating only a little bit.
“I did it again,” she said to Jackson. “It wasn’t a fluke.”
“Yeah, you did,” he said, meeting her gaze. “You sure you don’t want to pet him?”
“I don’t know,” she said. “One step at a time.” She looked at Rowdy for a moment, but Jackson ’s gaze on her made her feel strange. Avoiding his gaze, she backed away. “I guess I should go. G-”
She felt his hand close over hers and gently tug her toward him. For some reason, she allowed it. She would have to think about just why later. Some part of her craved the sensation of his touch. She would love to feel the strength of his chest against her back. She would love to feel more.
“You’re different here,” he said in a low voice as he rubbed his thumb on the underside of her wrist. “On the ranch.”
She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, catching just a hint of his scent. “It’s easier. I don’t feel pulled in so many different directions. I still want to fix things, but a lot of it is so basic. Clean cabins, muck out stalls.” She gave a breathless laugh. “Even I can do that.”
He turned her around to face him, and she forced herself to meet his gaze. She didn’t want him to see how much he affected her. Smiling, she lifted one of her hands and wiggled her fingers. “Are you saying you like my new barn manicure? Didn’t you know it’s the latest trend?”
Jackson looked down at her and couldn’t keep from smiling, too. He glanced at her small hand, which was already growing a couple of calluses. “What would your friends back in Dallas say?”
“One more thing I don’t have to worry about,” she said.
“Why do you need to be the one to fix everything?”
“You’re my accountant. You know why. Because I’ve got gobs of money, so I need to use it to make things better.”
“But why you? Why not other people? For that matter, most people with gobs of money sure as hell don’t give it away like you do.”
“Maybe they feel like they deserve it,” she said.
He looked into her eyes and saw something he hadn’t glimpsed before. “You really don’t feel like you deserve it?” he said.
“Why should I have things easy when other people have them so hard? What did I do to deserve to live like a princess? Nothing. So I got the sperm jackpot when it came to my father. How is that fair?”
“You feel guilty,” he said, the realization hitting him. “This is all about your guilt. How much are you going to have to give away to appease the guilt monster?” He shook his head. “Lord, you’re even willing to marry someone you don’t love.”
She pulled her hand away and glowered at him. “Well, thank you very much, Dr. Jackson, amateur shrink, for that lovely analysis. I came down to the barn to feel better, to maybe even be able to sleep when I went back to bed, but you’ve totally ruined that.”
“Sorry,” he said. “I just hadn’t realized you were so motivated by guilt, and it’s guilt for no reason.”
“Again, thanks for nothing,” she said as she turned away.
Feeling a slice of his own guilt, he followed after her. “Wait a minute. I can turn this around.”
“You already did,” she said.
He reached for her shoulder. “Come on. Give me a chance.”
She stopped, although he could tell she didn’t want to, and shot him a dark glance. “Why should I?”
“Because I promise I’ll make you feel different,” he said.
She paused, then let out a sigh. “Not the best sell I’ve ever heard,” she said.
“And you know I don’t promise what I can’t deliver,” he told her.
She moved her head in a circle. “Okay. I’ll give you five minutes.”
“Deal.” He took her hand and led her back toward Rowdy’s stall.
“Where are we going?” she asked. “Why are we-”
“Just do what I tell you, and I promise you’ll feel different.”
She slowed her steps. “I’m not sure I’m going to like this.”
“You will,” he said firmly, tugging her the last few steps to Rowdy’s stall. The gelding immediately walked to greet them. “See how happy he is to see you?”
“Because I give him treats,” she said.
“He’s like most men. They all want your treats, one way or another,” Jackson said, his own gaze straying to her curves. “You have a lot of treats.”
She shot him a wary glance. “Careful, that was almost a compliment.”
He pulled a lump of sugar from his pocket. “I want you to give this to him,” he said.
“I did that last night. And tonight I gave him an apple.”
“I know, but then I want you to do something else.”
“What?”
“I want you to stroke him.”
She bit her lip. “Why is this so important to you?”
“Because it’s important to you,” he said. “I can tell that it is, and I can help you if you let me.”
“You sound pretty confident,” she said.
“I told you before I don’t promise what I can’t deliver.” He lifted her hand and put the sugar cube on her palm. “Give it to him, then pet him.”
She bit her lip again but slid her hand toward the horse. Rowdy immediately took his treat. Then Jackson lifted her hand to the horse’s neck, guiding her to rub him. Rowdy responded like a gentleman.
“Look. He’s wiggling his nose,” Jackson said, liking the way her hand felt within his. “He likes it.”
She gave a soft half laugh and rubbed the horse on her own. “I think he does.” She stroked Rowdy a couple times more, then slowly moved backward, which put the back of her body against his.
Jackson felt an overwhelming urge to slide his hands around her belly and bury his face in her hair. It wasn’t rational. In fact, if he went through with it, it would be as stupid as hell. He burned with curiosity about how she would respond. Depending on her mood, she could slap him or give in to whatever it was that shimmered between them.
She turned around and looked into his eyes. “Thanks,” she said and lifted on tiptoe to skim her lips over his cheek.
The breezy kiss made his gut knot. The little caress was her way of saying, Thanks, but don’t count on getting too close. It got under his skin enough that he gave in to an impulse. He reached for her hand and pulled her back.
Her eyes widened in surprise. “What-”
“I promised I would make you feel different,” he said, pulling her closer.
“You did,” she conceded.
“That was step one,” he said and lowered his head. “This is step two.” He pressed his mouth against her soft, puffy lips and immediately felt himself grow hard.
She opened her mouth as if she couldn’t decide to quit or continue, and he made the choice for her when he slid his tongue past her lips. He felt her body stiffen in an instant of surprise, but then she slid her hands around his shoulders, pressed her breasts into his chest, and lured his tongue deeper into her mouth.
She rubbed her curvy female body against his, and it was all he could do not to rip off her clothes and nail her against the wall of the barn. The force of the primitive urge took his breath.