He had intended to continue: '... then we may never be able to get back to the known system.'
"I know what you're thinking," Konklin said. "It may be hard to find because it may not be there."
Inside Groves was a gnawing fear. They had come a long way; the area of charted space was far behind them. Suppose, after all this, there was really no tenth planet? "It's too late to change our minds now," he said aloud.
"Well," Konklin said, "we could all take off in the lifeboat... just an empty ship heading out..."
"At dinner I'll announce that anybody can jump who wants to."
Groves opened one of Preston's metal-bound log-books. "Do you know Preston's article on the origin of Flame Disc?" He summarized Preston's ancient words. "The Disc probably wasn't always one of Sol's. It may have come in only a few centuries ago, perhaps in Preston's lifetime."
"Then you're not going to suggest there may be no Disc?"
Groves scowled. "Of course there's a Disc! We wouldn't have come this far otherwise."
But his fear remained.
For dinner a case of frozen pork was opened. It should have been the first meal on Flame Disc, the landing cele- bration. Watching the faces of the forty-odd men, women and children, Groves knew it had been a good idea to get non-protine food on the table.
"How long has it been since you ate real meat?" Konklin asked Mary Uzich.
"I've never had any real meat before," Mary said simply.
Groves sipped at a tin cup of brandy, his meal almost untouched. The others gradually finished and pushed their dishes away. The thick metallic dust in the air became darkened by the smoke of cigarettes.
"Is it true we've passed the final marker buoys?" Larry Thompson asked Groves.
"A few hours ago."
"Then we're actually beyond the known system."
"This is outside," Groves said, "because nobody expects to find anything here but wastes and monsters." He finished his brandy and pushed the cup away. "Gardner says the lifeboat is in good shape. It's loaded with supplies and signal equipment."
"What about navigation?" Louise Tyler asked. "You're the only one who knows navigation and you're not coming."
"The lifeboat is essentially an automatic guided missile. Once it's lined up with Neptune it'll find its way there."
"What happens after we get to Neptune?" Flood demanded.
"Supply ships reach the inner planets every ten days," Groves answered.
"What if one of the Hills patrols grabbed us on the supply ship?" McLean asked. "They might force us into work-camps."
"Maybe you're safer here," Konklin said. "Maybe going back isn't such a hot idea after all."
"I'm going back," Thompson said firmly. He forced himself not to look at Louise Tyler.
Groves made a note on a tablet beside his arm. "That's Thompson."
"Let me explain," Thompson pleaded. "Louise and
I are going to marry. We want our kids to grow up to be human beings, not freaks. We want them to grow up on Earth."
Groves turned to Louise. "You're going back then?"
Louise nodded.
"I'm sticking," Jereti said.
Mary Uzich was astonished. "You're staying?"
"I can't stand Earth any more. Dirty people crowded together in slums; noise and filth..." He tapped his dish. "This meal has made me remember what I'm missing; I can't go back to protine."
"I'm staying," Janet Sibley whispered in an almost inaudible voice. Her eyes were fixed avidly on Captain Groves.
"I'm staying," Mary Uzich said, with a glance at Konklin.
Nat Gardner stirred restlessly. "I'm staying," he announced, and then flushed scarlet. "I have to make up for that." He gestured in embarrassment. "That son of a gun McLean. I want to make up, for having been a fool."
"I don't have to ask if you're going," Groves said to Paul Flood. "I'm not giving you any choice."
Flood grinned. Things were satisfactory. The ipvic-tap was in place, concealed within the transmitting antenna. Half the Society was turning back. The ship was short of fuel—and, most important, for a brief time he had been President. The score had been settled. He had shown Cartwright up for what he was.
Groves addressed the people round him. "Those who are leaving must collect their personal possessions and valuables."
Gardner slammed the hull-locks of the lifeboat and stood for a moment inspecting the jet flanges. A blur of pale, terrified faces gleamed from the window of the boat, and then Gardner signalled Captain Groves. The boat was dropped into the sphincter of the ship. It held for a short while as the atmosphere-envelope carefully sealed itself behind, and then all at once it fell like a stone into the empty void. Its jets came on with a furious splutter. Groves, in the control bubble of the ship, followed its course on his instrument board. The lifeboat hesitated, then very slowly began to fall behind as its sighting mechanism focused on the distant orb of Neptune.
Konklin lingered at the entrance of the bubble, not wanting to go into the deserted cargo hold. "The only people left are you, me, and the Japanese optical workers."
"It's not as bad as that," Groves said; he had opened his writing tablet and was studying a list. "We can use that old carpenter. I don't think the Sibley woman will be much use. It's good that Gardner stayed. The optical workers will come in handy when..."
Mary appeared at the entrance, white-faced and breathless. "They've left three children in the forward cabins! And there's all that stuff everybody left. We'll have plenty of protine when we land!"
After a moment Groves answered: "Plenty of food, clothing, raw plastics, machine tools, construction materials, wiring, pipe, boring equipment, medical supplies—everything but fuel."
"We won't need fuel," Mary said, surprised. "We won't leave again, will we?"
"We may have to search before we locate it," Groves admitted reluctantly.
"Is it true that the Hills have data about the Disc?" Konklin asked. "Good photographs that were never publicly released?"
"One hears that. The Hills are interested in not finding the Disc."
"The expedition of 'eighty-nine found nothing," Konklin pointed out. "And they had all Preston's data."
"Maybe what Preston saw was an extra large space serpent," Mary suggested wanly. "Maybe it'll devour us, like in the stories."
Groves eyed her stonily. "You two turn in and get some sleep."
Mary shivered. "It's like a tomb; down there in the cargo hold."
Mary threw herself wearily down on a bed and slipped off her sandals. "It's peaceful, here," she said to Konklin.
Konklin wandered moodily about. "I keep thinking of what's outside. The no-man's-land of space: it's all around us, out there. Coldness, silence, death... if not worse. It seemed a good idea, a tenth planet for everybody to migrate to, but now we're beginning to face the fact that it may not be true."
Konklin threw himself down on the cot beside her. "I never told you why I came, or why I joined the Society. You want to know?"
"If you want to tell me."
Konklin licked his lips. "I'm wanted by the Directorate police. I skipped out of a work-camp on Europa three years ago. The penalty for that is death. With four others I beat up a guard, stole a patrol ship and took off for Earth. We were shot down over North America. I was the only one who got out. I've been on the run since then."
"Does Groves know all this?"
"Both he and Cartwright know."
Mary reached out shyly and took his hand. "I think you'll be a good person for the colony." She pulled him close to her. "Even if we don't get there, this will be wonderful."
"This cell?"
She gazed up at him earnestly. "This is what I wanted when I was drifting aimlessly. I have a charm I made up to bring you to me; Janet Sibley helped me with it. I wanted you to love me."