–Smile now, he’d say, to all of us first.

Smiling was easy.

–Francis, he’d say, sounding ordinary.

–Head up; come on.

Ma would put her hand on Sinbad’s shoulder and still try to hold one of the babies.

–God damn it; the sun’s gone behind a cloud.

But Sinbad kept his head down. And Da lost his temper. All the photographs were the same, me and Ma smiling like mad and Sinbad looking down at the ground. We held the smile for so long, they weren’t really smiles any more. When Ma swapped so Da could be in the photograph Da looked like he was really smiling and Sinbad’s face disappeared completely he was looking down so much.

There were no photographs this day.

Ma had the biscuits wrapped in tinfoil for each of us. That way we didn’t have to share and there were no fights. I could tell from the shape of the foil what biscuits were inside; four Mariettas, two together like a sandwich with butter in the middle, and the square shape at the bottom was a Polo. I’d keep the Polo till last.

Ma said something to Da. I didn’t hear it. I could tell by the look on the side of her face, she was waiting for him to answer. But it was more than that, her face.

You got the Mariettas and you squeezed them together and the butter came out the holes. We called them botty bickies sometimes, because of the way the butter came out, but Ma wouldn’t let us call them that.

I took the Fanta off Sinbad. He let me. It was empty, and it shouldn’t have been.

I looked at Ma again. She was still looking at Da. Catherine had one of Ma’s fingers in her mouth and she was biting real hard—she had a few teeth—but Ma didn’t do anything about it.

Sinbad was eating his biscuits the way he always did, and I did as well. He was nibbling all around the edge till he went all the way round and the Mariettas were the same shape again, only smaller. He licked where the butter had come out of the holes. When he got to the end of his first lap he stopped. I grabbed the hand the biscuit sandwich was in and I squashed his hand in my hands and made him smash the biscuits into crumbs that were too small to rescue. That was for drinking all the Fanta.

Ma was getting out of the car. It was awkward because of Catherine. I thought we were all getting out, that it had stopped raining.

But it hadn’t. It was lashing.

Something had happened; something.

Ma left the door open; it closed back a bit but it was still open. Me and Sinbad waited for Da to move, to see what we were supposed to do. He leaned over and grabbed the passenger door handle and pulled the door shut. He grunted when he was straightening up.

Sinbad was licking his hand.

–Where’s Ma gone to? I asked.

Da sighed, and turned a bit so I could see some of the side of his face. Then he didn’t say anything. He was looking in the windshield mirror at us. I couldn’t see his eyes. Sinbad had his head down, the way he used to. I rubbed the wet off the inside of the window beside me. I hadn’t been going to touch it until we got home. I couldn’t see anything, miles of the sand but not Ma. I was on the wrong side, behind Da.

–Has she gone for 99s?

I rubbed the window again.

The door clicked open. Ma got in, ducking her head, making sure that Catherine wasn’t bashed against anything. Her hair was stuck down on her. She didn’t have anything; she hadn’t got us anything.

–It was too wet for Cathy, she said after a while, to Da.

He started the car.

–You’re getting very tall, she said.

She was trying to get the zip of my trousers to close.

–You’ll soon be the same size as your daddy.

I wanted that, to be the same size as my da. My name was the same as his one. I’d waited till he’d gone to work before I’d shown her that the zip wouldn’t shut properly. He’d have shut it. I hoped she wouldn’t be able to do it. I hated the trousers. They were yellow corduroy. One of my cousins had owned them first. They’d never been mine.

She hitched them up. She tried to hold the two sides together so the zip would go up. I didn’t cheat. I even sucked in my belly.

–No, she said.—No use.

She let go of the trousers.

–They’re finished, she said.—You’re growing too fast, Patrick.

She didn’t mean it.

–We’ll have to use a safety pin, she said.

She saw my face.

–Just for today.

They were checking the B.C.G., that was what everyone said. Henno hadn’t told us anything. He’d just said that we were to queue up and the first two in the queue were always to have their jumpers and shirts and vests off ready when the door opened or there’d be trouble. Only two had gone in and they hadn’t come back out yet. He was supposed to be looking after us but he wasn’t. He’d gone off, upstairs to the teachers’ room for a cup of tea.

–I’ll hear any noise, he said.—Don’t worry.

He stamped his foot on the wooden floor. The noise bounced down the corridor. It took ages to die.

–There, he said.—Whispering is impossible in this school. I’ll hear every little thing.

Then he went.

We heard him at the top of the stairs. He’d stopped.

Ian McEvoy made sure that the wall was guarding him, then he stamped his foot the way Henno had. The laughing was great, waiting to hear Henno coming back down. He didn’t. We all stamped our feet. It must have been his shoes though; we couldn’t get the same noise. But that was all we did; we didn’t shout or mess.

They were checking the B.C.G. marks.

What’ll they do if you don’t have all of them?

You were supposed to have three of them.

–They’ll give you more.

There was a triangle of them up on your left arm. The skin was funny in the little circles.

–It means you have polio.

–It does not!

–It means you can get polio.

–You don’t have to have it.

David Geraghty, the fella in our class with polio, was in the queue behind us.

–Hey Geraghty, I said.—Did you get your B.C.G.?

–Yeah, he said.

–Then how did you get your polio? Fluke Cassidy asked him.

The queue broke a bit and crowded around David Geraghty.

–I don’t know, he said.—I don’t remember.

–Were you born with it?

David Geraghty looked like he was going to start crying. The queue straightened up again; we all tried to get as far away from him as we could. The first two still hadn’t come out.

–You can get polio from drinking water from out of the toilet.

The door opened. The two fellas came out. Brian Sheridan and James O’Keefe. They were dressed again. They didn’t look pale or scared or anything. There were no tear tracks. The two other fellas went in.

–What did they do to yeh?

–Nothing.

They didn’t know what they were to do now. They couldn’t go back to the classroom because there was no one there and Henno would kill them if they went in on their own. I took my jumper off and dropped it on the floor.

–What did they do?

–Nothing, said Brian Sheridan.—They just looked.

He looked different now. His face had gone stiff. He was messing with his shoe. I stopped taking my shirt off. Kevin grabbed Brian Sheridan.

–Lay off!

–What did they do? Tell us!

–They looked at me.

His face was real red now and he wasn’t really trying to get away from Kevin; he was trying not to let Kevin or the rest of us see his face properly. He’d start crying, for definite.

The other fella, James O’Keefe, wasn’t blushing.

–They looked at our mickeys, he said.

I could hear the rubber knobs on the bottom of David Geraghty’s crutches squeaking on the floor. James O’Keefe looked right down the queue. He knew he had power. He knew it wouldn’t last long. I was freezing. James O’Keefe’s face was dead serious. He had us.

–Let go o’ me!

Kevin let go of Brian Sheridan.