"It's going to have to do for now," I said.

"I will be happy to listen to your proposal," Gau said. "But 'something big, something expensive' is a little too vague for me to give approval."

"Fair enough," I said.

"Why can't you tell me what it is now?" Gau asked.

"I need to talk to Jane first," I said.

"Whatever it is, Administrator Perry, if it's something that involves my help, then you'll be permanently in traitorous territory," Gau said. "At least in the eyes of the Colonial Union."

"It's like you said, General," I said. "It's with whom your allegiances lie."

"I've been ordered to place you under arrest," said Manfred Trujillo.

"Really," I said. The two of us stood in front of the shuttle I was about to leave in.

"The orders came in a couple of hours ago," Trujillo said. "Along with the new communications satellite the CU just gave us. The CU's not pleased about a Conclave ship being in our sky, incidentally."

"So are you arresting me?" I asked.

"I'd love to, but it seems that you and your family can't be found," Trujillo said. "I suspect that you've already left the planet. We'll do a colony-wide search, of course. But I wouldn't really lay good odds on us finding you."

"I'm sneaky, I am," I said.

"I always said that about you," Trujillo said.

"You could get in trouble for that," I said. "The last thing this colony needs is another leader hauled up in front of an inquiry."

"As your colony leader, I can officially tell you to mind your own business," Trujillo said.

"So your ascension has been formally approved," I said.

"If it wasn't, how would I be able to arrest you?" Trujillo said.

"Good point," I said. "Congratulations. You always wanted to run the colony. Now you are."

"It's not the way I planned to get the job," Trujillo said.

"I'm sorry we got in your way, Manfred," I said.

"I'm not," Manfred said. "If I had been leading the colony, we would all be dead now. You, Jane and Zoe' saved this colony. I'm happy to have waited in line."

"Thanks," I said.

"I want you to know it took a lot for me to say that," Trujillo said. I laughec, and looked over to where Zoe was giving a tearful good-bye to Gretchen and other friends.

"Zoe is going to miss Gretchen," I said.

"Gretchen is going to miss Zee," Trujillo said. "I have half a mind to ask you to let Zoe stay. For Gretchen and for us." Trujillo nodded toward Hickory and Dickory, who stood off to the side, soaking up Zee's emotional farewell to her friends. "You said you reached an agreement with the Conclave, but I still wouldn't mind having the Obin watching our back."

"Roanoke will be fine," I assured him.

"I think you're right about that," Trujillo said. "I hope so. It would be nice just to be another colony. We've been the center of attention long enough."

"I think I'll be able to draw some attention off you," I said.

"I wish you would tell me what you have planned," Trujillo said.

"As I'm no longer your colony leader, I can't officially tell you to mind your own business," I said. "But mind it anyway."

Trujillo sighed. "You understand my concern," he said. "We've been at the center of everyone else's plans, and none of the plans have worked out even remotely as they should have."

"Including yours," I reminded him.

"Including mine," Trujillo agreed. "I don't know what you're planning, but given the failure rate around here, I'm concerned that the backlash is going to get back here to Roanoke. I'm looking out for my colony. Our colony. Our home."

"Our colony," I agreed. "But not my home anymore."

"Even so," Trujillo said.

''You're going to have to trust me, Man," I said. "I've worked hard to keep Roanoke safe. I'm not going to stop doing that now."

Savitri stepped down from the shuttle bay and walked over to us, PDA in hand. "Everything's stowed," she said, to me. "Jane says we're ready when you are."

"You said good-bye to everyone?" I asked her.

"I have," Savitri said, and held up her wrist, which had a bracelet on it. "From Beata. Says it was her grandmother's."

"She's going to miss you," I said.

"I know," Savitri said. "I'm going to miss her. She's my friend. We're all going to miss people. That's why it's called leaving."

"You could still stay," Trujillo said to Savitri. "There's no reason you need to go with this idiot. I'll even give you a twenty percent raise."

"Oooh, a raise," Savitri said. "It's tempting. But I've been with this idiot for a long time. I like him. I like his family more, of course, but who wouldn't."

"Nice," I said.

Savitri smiled. "If nothing else he keeps me amused. I never know what's going to happen next, but I know I want to find out. Sorry."

"All right, a thirty percent raise," Trujillo said.

"Sold," Savitri said.

"What?" I said.

"I'm kidding," Savitri said. "Idiot."

"Remind me to dock your pay," I said.

"How are you going to pay me now, anyway?" Savitri said.

"Look," I said. "Something that needs your attention. Over there. Away from here."

"Hmmmph," Savitri said. She went over to give Trujillo a hug, then jerked a thumb at me. "If things don't work out with this guy, I may come crawling back for my old job."

"It's yours," Trujillo said.

"Excellent," Savitri said. "Because if the last year has taught me anything, it's to have a backup plan." She gave Trujillo another quick hug. "I'm going to go collect Zoe, she said to me. "As soon as you're in the shuttle, we're ready."

"Thanks, Savitri," I said. "I'll be there in a minute. See you then." She squeezed my shoulder and walked off.

"Have you said good-bye to everyone you want to?" Trujillo asked.

"I'm doing it now," I said.

Minutes later our shuttle was in the sky, heading toward the Gentle Star. Zoe was crying silently, patting Babar and missing her friends. Jane, sitting next to her, gathered her in a hug. I looked out the porthole as I left behind another world.

"How do you feel?" Jane asked me.

"Sad," I said. "I wanted this to be my world. Our world. Our home. But it wasn't. It's not"

"I'm sorry," Jane said.

"Don't be," I said. I turned and smiled at her. "I'm glad we came. I'm just sad it wasn't to stay."

I turned back to the porthole. The Roanoke sky was fading to black around me.

"This is your ship," General Rybicki said to me, motioning around the observation deck he'd just been led into. I had been waiting for him there.

"It is," I said. "For now. You could say we're leasing it. I think it's originally Arrisian, which is some irony for you. It also explains the low ceilings."

"So I should address you as Captain Perry?" Rybicki asked. "That's a step down from your previous rank."

"Actually, Jane's the captain. I'm her nominal superior, but she's in charge of the boat. I think that makes me a commodore. Which is a step up."

"Commodore Perry," Rybicki said. "Catchy. Not very original, I'm afraid."

"I suppose not," I said. I held up the PDA I had in my hand. "Jane called me as you were being led up here. She told me that it had been suggested to you that you might try killing me."

"Christ," Rybicki said. "I'd like to know how she knows these things."

'I hope you're not planning to go through with it," I said. "It's not that you couldn't do it. You're still CDF. You're fast and strong enough to snap my neck before anyone could stop you. But you wouldn't make it out of this room afterward. I don't want you to die."

"I appreciate that," Rybicki said, dryly. Then, "No. I'm not here to kill you. I'm here to try to understand you."

"I'm glad to hear it," I said.

"You can start by telling me why you sent for me," Rybicki said. "The Colonial Union has all sorts of diplomats. If the Conclave is going to start a parlay with the CU, that's who should be here talking to you. So I'm wondering why you asked for me."