"Elend?" she asked.
He looked out, staring into the forest. "I'm not sure why I did it, Vin," he said quietly. "Why should I be the one to bring justice? I'm not even king. And yet, it had to be done. I felt it. I feel it still."
She laid a hand on his shoulder.
"He's the first man I've ever killed," Elend said. "He and I had such dreams, once: We'd ally two of the most powerful imperial houses, uniting Luthadel as never before. Ours wasn't to have been a treaty of greed, but a true political alliance intended to help make the city a better place."
He looked up at her. "I think I understand now, Vin, what it is like for you. In a way, we're both knives—both tools. Not for each other, but for this kingdom. This people."
She wrapped her arms around him, holding him, pulling his head to her chest. "I'm sorry," she whispered.
"It had to be done," he said. "The saddest part is, he's right. I abandoned them, too. I should take my own life with this sword."
"You left for a good reason, Elend," Vin said. "You left to protect Luthadel, to make it so Straff wouldn't attack."
"And if the koloss attack before Straff can?"
"Maybe they won't," Vin said. "They don't have a leader—maybe they'll attack Straff's army instead."
"No," Spook's voice said. Vin turned, seeing him approach through the forest, eyes squinting against the light.
That boy burns way too much tin, she thought.
"What do you mean?" Elend asked, turning.
Spook looked down. "They won't attack Straff's army, El. It won't be there anymore."
"What?" Vin asked.
"I. . ." Spook looked away, shame showing in his face.
I'm a coward. His words from earlier returned to her. "You knew," Vin said. "You knew the koloss were going to attack!"
Spook nodded.
"That's ridiculous," Elend said. "You couldn't have known that Jastes would follow us."
"I didn't," Spook said, a lump of ash falling from a tree behind him, bursting before the wind, and fluttering in a hundred different flakes to the ground. "But my uncle figured that Straff would withdraw his army and let the koloss attack the city. That's why Sazed decided to send us away."
Vin felt a sudden chill.
I've found the location of the Well of Ascension, Sazed had said. To the north. In the Terris Mountains. . ..
"Clubs told you this?" Elend was saying.
Spook nodded.
"And you didn't tell me?" Elend demanded, standing.
Oh, no. . ..
Spook paused, then shook his head. "You would have wanted to go back! I didn't want to die, El! I'm sorry. I'm a coward." He cringed, glancing at Elend's sword, shying away.
Elend paused, as if realizing he'd been stepping toward the boy. "I'm not going to hurt you, Spook," he said. "I'm just ashamed of you." Spook lowered his eyes, then sank down to the ground, sitting with his back to an aspen.
The thumpings, getting softer. . ..
"Elend," Vin whispered.
He turned.
"Sazed lied. The Well isn't to the north."
"What?"
"It's at Luthadel."
"Vin, that's ridiculous. We'd have found it."
"We didn't," she said firmly, standing, looking south. Focusing, she could feel the thumpings, washing across her. Pulling her.
South.
"The Well can't be to the south," Elend said. "The legends all place it north, in the Terris Mountains."
Vin shook her head, confused. "It's there," she said. "I know it is. I don't know how, but it is there."
Elend looked at her, then nodded, trusting her instincts.
Oh, Sazed, she thought. You probably had good intentions, but you may have doomed us all. If the city fell to the koloss. . .
"How fast can we get back?" Elend asked.
"That depends," she said.
"Go back?" Spook asked, looking up. "El, they're all dead. They told me to tell you the truth once you got to Tathingdwen, so you wouldn't kill yourselves climbing the mountains in the winter for nothing. But, when Clubs talked to me, it was also to say goodbye. I could see it in his eyes. He knew he'd never see me again."
Elend paused, and Vin could see a moment of uncertainty in his eyes. A flash of pain, of terror. She knew those emotions, because they hit her at the same time.
Sazed, Breeze, Ham. . .
Elend grabbed her arm. "You have to go, Vin," he said. "There might be survivors. . .refugees. They'll need your help."
She nodded, the firmness of his grip—the determination in his voice—giving her strength.
"Spook and I will follow," he said. "It should only take us a couple of days' hard riding. But an Allomancer with pewter can go faster than any horse over long distances."
"I don't want to leave you," she whispered.
"I know."
It was still hard. How could she run off and leave him, when she'd only just rediscovered him? Yet, she could feel the Well of Ascension even more urgently now that she was sure of its location. And if some of her friends did survive the attack. . .
Vin gritted her teeth, then opened up her pouch and pulled out the last of her pewter dust. She drank it down with a mouthful of water from her flask. It scratched her throat going down. It's not much, she thought. It won't let me pewter-drag for long.
"They're all dead. . ." Spook mumbled again.
Vin turned. The pulses thumped demandingly. From the south.
I'm coming.
"Elend," she said. "Please do something for me. Don't sleep during the night, when the mists are out. Travel during the night, if you can, and keep your wits about you. Watch for the mist spirit—I think it may mean you harm."
He frowned, but nodded.
Vin flared pewter, then took off at a run toward the highway.
My pleas, my teachings, my objections, and even my treasons were all ineffectual. Alendi has other counselors now, ones who tell him what he wants to hear.
52
BREEZE DID HIS BEST TO pretend he was not in the middle of a war. It didn't work very well.
He sat on his horse at the edge of Zinc Gate's courtyard. Soldiers shuffled and clanked, standing in ranks before the gates, waiting and watching their companions atop the wall.
The gates thumped. Breeze cringed, but continued his Soothing. "Be strong," he whispered. "Fear, uncertainty—I take these away. Death may come through those doors, but you can fight it. You can win. Be strong. . .."
Brass flared like a bonfire within his stomach. He had long since used up his vials, and had taken to choking down handfuls of brass dust and mouthfuls of water, which he had in a steady supply thanks to Dockson's mounted messengers.
How long can this possibly last? he thought, wiping his brow, continuing to Soothe. Allomancy was, fortunately, very easy on the body; Allomantic power came from within the metals themselves, not from the one who burned them. Yet, Soothing was much more complex than other Allomantic skills, and it demanded constant attention.
"Fear, terror, anxiety. . ." he whispered. "The desire to run or give up. I take these from you. . ." The speaking wasn't necessary, of course, but it had always been his way—it helped keep him focused.
After a few more minutes of Soothing, he checked his pocket watch, then turned his horse and trotted over to the other side of the courtyard. The gates continued to boom, and Breeze wiped his brow again. He noted, with dissatisfaction, that his handkerchief was nearly too damp to do him any good. It was also beginning to snow. The wetness would make the ash stick to his clothing, and his suit would be absolutely ruined.
The suit will be ruined by your blood, Breeze, he told himself. The time for silliness is over. This is serious. Far too serious. How did you even end up here?