Trent shakes his head in agreement.

“And who Trent Basso has to pick up the pieces when you find something or someone else you prefer.”  She passes me going directly to Trent.

“Kenna.”  Bryan warns but she ignores him putting her hand up to silence him.

“And who do you think she cries too late in the night after you don’t call or show up.”  Her finger is pointing into his chest.  “And who do you think reassures her she is a beautiful girl who deserves better than the scum of you.”  She pushes him with her finger and he stumbles back a little.

“I’ve changed.  I love her Kenna.  I promise I will never leave her again. You will never have to pick up the pieces to put her back together.”  He looks over at me sympathetically.

“Trent, you’re an asshole and you will always be an asshole.  If you didn’t screw with my friends feelings I would still love you like a brother but a guy can only have so many chances.  You have run out of them in my book but I can’t speak for her.”  She turns to me.  “Maddy, if you take him back and he breaks your heart again, I will of course be here for you.  I am your best friend and I would never leave you especially in a time of need but please think hard about getting back together with him.”  She is asking me to not get back with him.  She turns around storming back to her room.

“This is all your fault Bryan Edwards.”  She pushes past him.

“Thanks guys, what a great vacation so far.  My girl is up half the night too worried about what you are doing stopping me from getting laid.  I hope you enjoyed yourselves last night because I sure as hell didn’t.”  He spins around following Mackenna.

“Now, can I have a good morning kiss?”  Trent comes up pinning up against the wall with his hands on either side of my head.

“No.”  I duck under him arm walking to my room.

I go to my suitcase grabbing my running gear.  I try not to disturb the other girls coming in and out of the room so I sneak out to change in the bathroom again.  Running has been my release since my dad died.  At first I had to start small only doing one mile but over time I have gotten to five miles a day.  The more on my mind the longer I run.  I might hit my record today.

The cabin is so quiet I tiptoe through the living room where two guys are sprawled out on the couches.  Once I hit the porch the cool Wisconsin morning breeze hits my face.  I look out noticing the sun is coming up starting to burn the dew off the grass.  I start to make my way to the park building where I remember seeing a map of trails I could follow.

I decide on the Whitetail Trail, which means I have to follow the blue triangle signs.  The clear air up here feels good coming in and out of my lungs.  It makes the running that much more enjoyable.  Everything goes through my mind.  How can Trent think he could just come up assuming we would get back together?  Because I always gave in to him, look what I did last night.  I can never face Gabe again.  God, he was right to tell me he didn’t think it was a good idea.  I doubt he will want me to move to Florida once he finds out.  Whatever has been going on between us will be over now.

Trent is another story.  He seems genuine but doesn’t he always until he breaks me in two again.  How do I give him another chance, another time to crack my heart a little more than the last time, another time to have him use me? No, I will not do it to myself again.  Whatever happened last night was it, over, finished.  Trent Basso has to get out of my life if I am ever going to survive.

My mind keeps floating to Gabe and how upset he is with me about letting Trent come up here.  I can’t move to Florida even if he wants me to.  It wouldn’t be fair to him.  I love him.  Maybe more than I love Trent but I still love Trent and I can’t do that to him.  I cannot hurt him and eventually I would.  Trent will always be a factor between us.  He is safer in Florida away from me.  I am sure he will find some hot blonde to marry and have cute little blonde haired blue-eyed babies.

A mile left of my run and I slow down to absorb the scenery.  The tall trees are just starting to get their leaves after a long hard Wisconsin winter.  Some trees had fallen not making it through but small animals would find shelter around them, isn’t that what nature is all about.

I am just about to exit the trails back to the main road to our cabin when I hear footsteps behind me.  I don’t have to turn around to know who it is.  Rolling my eyes “Trent for the love of god can you leave me alone?”

“I don’t know who Trent is but seeing you in those shorts I know why he won’t leave you alone.”  A deep voice I don’t recognize speaks.  I can tell he is a couple steps behind me and I don’t want to waste time turning around.  I don’t know if I can outrun him but I have to give it a shot.   Once I hit the main road I run as fast I can towards the cabin and when I get to the front of the house I run right into Trent.

“Whoa baby, what is it?”  He holds me tight.

“There was…” I can’t breathe between the running and crying.  “A man” I take a deep breath “he was chasing me”

“Stay here.”  He sits me on the porch walking a ways down the road.  A couple minutes later he comes back shaking his head indicating he couldn’t find the guy.  “What did he look like?  I didn’t see anyone.  Let’s go call the park ranger.”  He motions me inside.

“I never turned around, I just ran.”  I say staying put on the rocking chair on the porch.  I can hear the laughing in the kitchen but I am not up for being around everyone.

“I wish you could describe him but you did the right thing with running.”  He comes to my side putting his arm around my shoulders pulling me close to him.

“I thought it was you so I made some comment about leaving me alone and then the guy said something about my shorts and I didn’t know what to do.”  I curl my legs into my body pressing my knees to Trent.

“It’s ok, I have you now.  No one is going to hurt you.”  He holds me close trying to stop me from shaking.  “Please don’t go out running by yourself.”

“You don’t have to worry about that anymore.”

After that incident Trent and I stay close all week.  I still have no desire to get back together and we don’t sleep together again but I do laugh at his jokes, sit next to him on the couch with his arm around me.  I even let him kiss me goodnight a few times.  It all makes me more confused.  Is Trent really ready to have a relationship?  I am just not ready to answer that question yet.

Sunday afternoon everyone is packing up and I know I have to say goodbye to Trent.  Kenna has gotten used to him being there although she gives him many dirty looks she never verbally attacks him again.

Trent walks over to my Jeep wrapping his arms around me from behind.  “I’m going to miss you.”  He whispers in my ear while nipping at my neck with his mouth.

I turn around to get out of his arms.  “Let’s see how you do when we aren’t around each other.”  I say.  “Trent, I can’t get back together with you yet.”

“I thought we were on our way.”  He says looking confused.

“You have always been good when we were around each other, it’s the distance thing you need help with.  Let’s see where this takes us ok.  We can decide if we want to do this at graduation.”

“Are you kidding me Maddy?”

“No these are my rules.  If you want me Trent you are going to have to prove yourself before I get involved again.”  I say leaning against my truck.

“Alright” he shakes his head smiling.  “I’ll prove it but Maddy.”  He leans in close to me.  “You better be ready to be swept off those beautiful feet.”  He kisses my neck and disappears back to his truck.

“Ready Maddy?”  Colt comes up throwing his bag in the back.

“Yeah…” I touch my neck.  “Yeah, let’s get out of here.”

We have two months until graduation, long enough for Trent to prove if he really wants to be a part of my life.   I am keeping to my word this time.  The problem is Gabe, I don’t know what to tell him but know I have to before he finds out from someone else.  He hasn’t talked to me since he hung up so I am not sure it is even his business anymore.